Well, there has been a lot swirling around me when it comes to welcoming new Fleeters into my life and I thought about my heightened emotions in some of the posts on here. I have thought about this some more and have come to the conclusion that it wouldn’t show who I am as a person if I deleted the “ugly” parts. The whole point of me expressing myself is that I could go back and see how far I have come from a certain time or place. I read some of my old posts and I look back on it now with appreciation that I had the guts to type my emotions out, sometimes too cryptically that I forgot. As I welcome new Fleeters, I don’t want to shield you away from the parts of me that are insecure, emotional, and honest. I think that there is a line of identity and protection towards the people I am talking about but that doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t express my feelings.
I am going to still be as honest as I can be and if I have heightened emotions spilling through my posts, so be it. I don’t want to be someone who is always positive or “perfect” because no one is. If everyone was perfect, we wouldn’t be human. I am just trying to live my life to the best ability that I can and I will always try to be positive, but that is hard. I hope that all of you understand and will support me in my decision to really express how I feel. I know that a lot of people search the web to get away from reality but I feel that it is just another reality in itself (whoa, mind blown).
This blog to me is not to share a “poster” version of myself, it is to share all of me with the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Thanks for taking a couple of minutes to read this! I appreciate all of you and continue growing as a person because of your support ❤
-The Mermaid Network