If you have been following me from the beginning or even a few weeks ago, you will know that now my grandfather has passed away and it has officially been only two days since his death. I have been going in and out of a state of normalcy and then sobbing. I miss him dearly and yet I am going about my life like nothing has happened. Well, I shouldn’t say like nothing has happened but really as long as I am focused on anything but a quiet moment in my mind I am okay. I can think about school and all of that but I won’t lie and say that there are no times when I am not crying.

I cried recently telling a friend and then thirty minutes I am okay in some sort. I just don’t know what it means when I am not sobbing because what are you supposed to do but move on with your life?